Dear Sarah

Sarah, how did you do it?

How did you wait for decades? Please tell me there were days you got angry with God for delaying. Please tell me there were days you felt marrying Abraham was a mistake altogether. How did you cope? He was always encouraging you right?

I have been waiting for just 17 years, and i am tired. I am tired!

I've been wondering how something as simple as having a baby has become so difficult. My sisters have all given birth, boys, girls, twins even triplets. And i'm asking for just one. Just one!

I'm sure you were there when Lot's wife had their first daughter. You celebrated with them, you prayed with them. You carried their baby in your arms, and prayed tears in your spirit, trusting God for answers. What about when the second daughter came, you danced with them to the altar of thanksgiving right?

Sarah, there are times i cry to bed, my husband tries his best to console me. He encourages me, but waiting isn't easy. It's not.

Well, what about Hagar? how did you handle her? She returned your favor with mockery. I have friends like that. I pray for them, and God tells me they'll soon conceive, i even get to know whether it's going to be a boy or girl sometimes. They when the child comes, i hear them laugh at me. One of them said i brought bad luck to my husband. She called me WP, Witchy Prophetess. Did they call you names too?

Sarah, I know God is good. I know. But this test of faith is tough. Most times i read your story for encouragement. Your path wasn't the easy one. I learn a new lesson on faith whenever i meditate on your story.

Today i saw a very handsome baby at the market, and it reminded me of God's promise. The word came so clear that our first child will be a son. We have prayed, fasted, and tried medical recommendations. 

Over the years, i have learned that God doesn't mark time the way we do. He has an appointed time for everything in his plan. What makes time relevant is the purpose assigned to it.

I've concluded that I'll wait for my own Isaac. Much more, i'm preparing my heart to lay him down, if it so pleases the Lord.

Thank you for standing strong, thank you for laughing at the angels. I have laughed at these things too. God sees the travails of our hearts. He keeps his promises.

Love,

from Sarai,

a waiting wife.