What are the colors of joy?

What are the colors of joy? 

How do I combine the letters together? 

What do I do when the pieces just don't fall into place? 

Or when they break even further.

There's that moment when you collect the memories you kept in the archives, and let them play before your eyes like a favorite epic on Netflix.

In that moment you smile, a wide grin, a chuckle… and then it grows thinner, and thinner till the grin turns to wrinkles, eating up all the bright things dear to your heart. 

Please tell me, What are the colors of joy?

My ink is getting ashamed, I can't continue to stare at this bland canvas.

Edit:

For T.,...the darkness won't last forever. Joy comes in the morning.